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Friday, February 21, 2014

Hard Times Flooded with Blessings

Our family has been going through a rough time lately. My beloved 82-year-old aunt, who has been the nearby grandma for my kids for 16 years, was ambulanced to the emergency room two weeks ago, totally unresponsive to anything. After several hours she was able to say "God, God, God" and later could say my name. The upshot of all this is that after immense amounts of tests and two weeks in the hospital, she seems to have slipped into a psychotic delirium, or rapid onset dementia.

So I've been at the hospital nearly every day or arranging to be able to pay her bills while the girls have been keeping things going here at home along with packing up her apartment. We've moved a lot of her stuff into our little house, so it's feeling cluttered and cramped in here, but that won't last. And all that stuff is helping hold the house down though the winds are blowing furiously outside.

While this has been a horrifying and sad journey, I'm so thankful for the many little blessings God has tucked into each day. Here's the short list:

  • that the girls are old enough to run the home as well as pack up stuff from her apartment
  • unity in prayer by several churches
  • that I was able to be blessed by Aunt B chanting her prayer list and hearing her pray for each one of the clan as well as many missionaries and her pastors and church family
  • sunshine in February
  • that I have a GPS that helped me to find her hospital in an unfamiliar area of the big city to which I drove the hour and a half nearly daily
  • kind, helpful nursing staff
  • good visit time with my brother on the day he was able to visit
  • a care manager (social worker) who affirmed with us that God is in control
  • much Scripture already planted in Aunt B's mind that came out in her constant ramblings after she was able to talk again
  • the humor of her conceding that there could be Christian brothers on the Detroit Tigers baseball team (she's a die-hard Cleveland Indians fan)
  • that it turned out that her doctor was a friend of my brother and sister-in-law
  • that we had times of worship, praise, and immersion in God's Word in the hospital room
  • good food at the hospital
  • that I found a little cafe in the hospital that made good lattes
  • safety in travelling on snowy roads
  • that I had a recording of Larnelle Harris singing "His Eye is on the Sparrow" (one of Aunt B's favorite songs) on my Kindle and could play it in the hospital room
  • the player piano in the lobby which offered auditory beauty photography of the great outdoors on the hospital halls which offered visual beauty
So, as we get her settled into a nursing home, because she really requires 24/7 care, we continue to trust in God's care and acknowledge Him and lean not to our own understanding and know that He will direct our paths. Sometimes we get down, but as I was reminded in another blog, we shouldn't listen to our own feelings but instead tell ourselves again and again the promises and characteristics of our great and faithful God.